Still, taking the step to recording my own CD felt unimaginable to me. I sent a demo to a Swiss business man who chooses one artist a year to create the Christmas gift he gives to his business associates: a CD. He chose me and I had to produce a recording of original music within 3 months of his decision. With no band, incomplete songs and little time, I wrote many of these songs while touring Russia, working in party bands and singing in a Variety show. I was also busy licking my wounds after my bestfriend/boyfriend/partner left me for another woman. This betrayal colored how I saw the world and what I felt I had to sing about for some time. Still, most of the songs are love letters. One song/letter is to my brother, another to my father (who produced and played on this CD) and mother, and another is a lullaby for the world. We arranged, rehearsed, recorded and mixed in 9 days. It was a frustrating, rewarding and challenging process that showed me what I’m capable of and, mostly, of what I’ve yet to learn. I am grateful to have had the chance to record these butterfly netted truths and have been humbled by the process.

Whether on the road playing for the drunken nouveau riche of Moscow, with the overly talented in N.Y. café’s, or in the dark caves of Berlin, I feel I’m searching. Music is the medium, but my desire has always been to touch and connect with people through song. I’ve gotten to see the world and continue to question how I see it. This is a privilege. My parents believed in changing the world from the outside in. I’ve sought change from the inside out; evolution instead revolution. My songs are my attempt to express this. I hope the search never ends…

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